train ’em up

There has been a consistent theme through all the Hawley clinic’s I’ve attended — and not just themes I’ve written about explicitly, like precision, rhythm, or strong basics. ¬†Something a little more hard to put my finger on.

For example, one of my lesson mates biffed the approach to an oxer and hit it on an odd stride, but her horse went and even if he didn’t do it perfectly, he did it. Hawley was like good!, you did it. ¬†When another rider said she didn’t think she could do the angle because her horse was so green, Hawley didn’t accept it (and with the right ride, the horse did the angle just fine). ¬†When I couldn’t seem to get a rhythm or the correct lead on the circle of death, Hawley didn’t want me to break out of the exercise to fix things, but to fix them from within the circle.

WHYYY did i not train him to do this on purpose?

And to all of these small mistakes she said “there’s no other way, but to train them up”.

I didn’t hear Hawley give a long explanation for this, though I think I’ve heard her do so in the past (and stupidly didn’t write about it! wtf past Nicole?!?!). ¬†This statement seems to be a bit of the riff on the old “if you’re not making mistakes, you are not doing anything / trying hard enough / learning / pushing yourself.” ¬†Sure, we want to train our horses to be better, smarter, quicker, stronger, cleverer. ¬†But if we only ever put them in situations where they will never have to ¬†be better, smarter, quicker, stronger, or cleverer, they will never learn to how to become¬†those things.

By extension, it means that if we aren’t giving ourselves opportunities to fail,¬†we will never become better, smarter, quicker, stronger, or cleverer. ¬†An interesting corollary to screwing up with confidence.

Along with this, I noticed¬†that Hawley ¬†has a different attitude towards horses than¬†many of her students (clinic students?) seem to. ¬†When we did screw up, she applauded us for committing, and frequently told us to pat our horses and make a big deal over them when they made the correct choices. ¬†That wasn’t really new. ¬†But when someone apologized to her and said she felt so terrible making her horse put up with her (admittedly very honest and reasonable) mistakes, HB was like “So? Give him an extra handful of grain tonight. That’s what you have him for.”


I’ve not attended a lot of clinics with big name trainers, olympians, or fancy riders, so I’m not sure if this is pervasive in the professional levels, though I imagine to some extent it must be. ¬†And this is also not to say, in the least way, that she is not a kind, respectable, incredibly savvy horsewoman and rider. ¬†Just that, perhaps, being all of those things on a professional level means that you cannot necessarily afford all the soft squishiness that tends to accompany amateur riders. ¬†It’s a little less “this hairy beast is my whole heart” and a little more “we have a working relationship”.

But it’s true! ¬†We have this giant, expensive, oversized pets to have fun and learn on. ¬†If I’m doing those two things, what am I doing this for? ¬†I feel far more awful when I’ve been making mistakes of hubris with¬†Murray, like pushing him for something I thought we should be ready to achieve “just because”, than when I make an honest mistake, like riding him in a saddle that didn’t really fit for a year. ¬†And as much as I appreciate his quirkiness and silliness and the feeling of connection we have both in the tack and out, he’s not the shoulder-to-cry-on-best-friend-through-thick-and-thin that some people profess their horses to be.

broseph just isn’t that into cuddling

I’m not trying to be more like Hawley or distance myself from my horse thinking that it makes me a better or more accomplished rider. (OKAY YOU CAUGHT ME I’M ALWAYS TRYING TO BE MORE LIKE HAWLEY!) But it is interesting to think about where, on the relationship spectrum, Murray falls in my life. ¬†He’s no Ellie, that’s for sure, but I value him more than I do my chickens. ¬†(A lot more, and not just because of price/size/weight.) ¬†I will never, ever be able to sell him, but that’s not really because of our relationship… But I don’t want to, either, because I value our partnership and everything he has to teach me.

I do want to know where you fall on the spectrum — from “pony would sleep in my bed every night if I could” to “this is nothing more than a business arrangement” — and how you think it influences your riding.